Oh, please help....
I was looking for scholarships the other day, and I came across one called 'Writers of the Future'. If you write a short story, you could get the 1000 dollar scholarship. not bad i guess. I thought about doing it, and my parents said i should. They asked if I had any short stories already written. I hesitantly said yes. They told me to send it in.
But I can't.
Maybe it is senti ental, and silly, but I can't turn in Marian. Win or lose, money or no, I cannot. i'll try to come up with another story. The deadline is still a few weeks away. Maybe something else can work. Mariuan...Marian is precious to me. If i turn that in...it's like losing a part of my soul. Like heartlessly selling a piece of my heart. I can't do it. Not for any shcolarship. Marian is ... beautiful, to me. somehow. i can't just give her away so heartlessly. I want to publish her, and share her, perhaps, but not win a schlarship with her. It'll hurt too much.
But I can't think of another short story plot.
What should I do??
But I can't.
Maybe it is senti ental, and silly, but I can't turn in Marian. Win or lose, money or no, I cannot. i'll try to come up with another story. The deadline is still a few weeks away. Maybe something else can work. Mariuan...Marian is precious to me. If i turn that in...it's like losing a part of my soul. Like heartlessly selling a piece of my heart. I can't do it. Not for any shcolarship. Marian is ... beautiful, to me. somehow. i can't just give her away so heartlessly. I want to publish her, and share her, perhaps, but not win a schlarship with her. It'll hurt too much.
But I can't think of another short story plot.
What should I do??
posted by Feanarwen | 3:18 PM
7 Comments:
Is Troy short or long? Perhaps you could use him ...
Dearest Liz, stop and think a moment. Is there any story you can think of that you've written that you love any less than Marian? It _is_ going to feel this way; but you know? I think if you actually won, you wouldn't feel as bad as you feel now.
Think about it. Why are you going to college? To learn, to get an education ... to become a writer. If you get money to help you towards that goal - and if you get that money by _writing_ - that's not selling your heart! It's reaching for the stars.
You love Marian dearly; imagine is it is she who's meant to set you on your journey.
I would send her in. :)
Liz, I can see where you're coming from. I am hesitant about even showing poeple 'The Wanderer' because it is so precious to me, let alone putblish it just anywhere. But I know that sometimes in the future I will open up and let people read it.
If you think you could write another short story....by all means, do it. Otherwise....send in Marian. It will turn out all right.
And remember Tolkien's words on publishing LotR:
"I have bared my heart to be shot at."
No truer words!! But in the end, the satisfaction, and the pride in your baby, outweighs it all. :)
Wow, Rose. I did not know that he said that exactly, I had only heard that he felt that way. And look how beloved LOTR is!!!
That is quite how I feel about The Wanderer, Rose.
And it's so true. You know, most people liked the Anointed - which I loved, and poured my soul into writing - and it made me very happy. But too much of that makes you start to get restless.
And then I happened to read a review with a different opinion of it, and ... well, it wasn't crushing. :) But it makes something twist inside of you.
The 'Writers of the Future' contest is not technically a scholarship, it is merely a competition. I've considered it, but have never actually done anything about it.
:hugs: Oh, Lizly, I know how you feel. But it's just those that you feel most deeply about that you have to put out there.
And Eid's right; WotF is a contest. It has four quarters every year, so if you miss this deadline, you can send it in for the next quarter. :hugs: It's hard when you put your darlings out there and other people don't like them, but you live through it.
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